I want the fullest out of my college experience, I think I’ve been held back from soo much by my family and other foolishness.
I just wanna live.
Break free from the same old same old.
I have two weeks…to life, on my own, with new responsibilities and new experiences that can’t be offered where I am now.
I’m excited as hell.
This is more for me than anything else, somewhat cathartic here, you are invited to read though. :D
Today I presented my senior memoir in World Lit, and I recognize that my high school life was kind of boring. Outside of school fine arts and my church, I didn’t go to a lot of places, didn’t experience anything really new, I stayed single, I feel (now) held back. I see a lot of other people’s lives before me and I hate to sound envious, but I wish I would have been more outgoing.
I am making a personal goal for myself, I gotta become more social in college. Many would consider me anti-social now, I don’t hang with a lot of people, I am talkative and people know of me, but I don’t really have that many friends, especially not in my class. I want to join more clubs, gain friends, maybe even get a girlfriend, and just live. I have to bust out of this small hole I put myself in sometimes, I always talk about community, yet I don’t fully exercise those concepts? That is hypocritical.
I’m done with the old, high school bores me now, I seek newness. I will always remember Ezekiel 37 in the Bible, it was the first reading I did at my church. But it talks about Ezekiel, this amazing prophet in the Old Testament, who viewed this valley of dry bones, and God, being in His spirit, asked the prophet if the bones could live. Ezekiel, ” God, you know. “
God questioned him multiple time the same, and until Ezekiel spoke life over the bones, nothing happened. But when Ezekiel spoke life to the bones, they rose up with flesh. This “life” God allows us to speak can be referred to as a fresh wind. God gives you a breath of fresh air so you can go on. I see so many dry places of my life, and I am asking God to move in, become a fresh wind over my life, and bring about newness.